I looked up from the TV monitor attached to the elliptical, tired of another “Chopped” rerun on the Food Network, and saw a wall full of motivational phrases and words painted across from me.
It was a Saturday morning of PT exercises followed by some form of cardio at the gym.
I was over it. I’ve been over it. I am over it.
Who knew that August of last year when the doctor diagnosed me with a stress fracture of the knee after my first MRI, that I would still not be running today. (For the record, he told me I’d be running anywhere from six weeks to six months).
It’s been 14 months since then.
I’ve had a new doctor since then.
I’ve done a lot of walking, swimming, PT exercises, stationary biking and elliptical-ing. I’ve talked a lot about not running. I’ve written a lot about not running.
But, back to that Saturday morning at the gym.
One phrase on the wall stood out to me the most: You are stronger than you think.
I kept repeating the sentence over and over in my head as I continued using the elliptical. It was kind of cathartic.
In all 10, 15+ years of being a runner*, not running has been the biggest challenge.
But, I am stronger than I think. And so are you.
*I ran cross-country in high school as a freshman but didn’t even like running then. I did it for the social aspects of being on a team. By no means did I consider myself a runner back then. But, I stuck with the team throughout high school and running became my lifelong friend. As you can see, I’m not good at letting go of friendships.