From injured to beyond angry

I skipped my swim today.

I was so mad, so angry about not being able to run that swimming — my “substitute” to running — just felt like a slap in the face.

When a family member suggests that you “not run any more marathons” in the future, how are you supposed to receive that? I’m injured. I have a stress fracture that is healing at a snail’s pace. Sure, I think about running all the time but I am in no manner thinking about when my next marathon will be. And, of course I have had flickering thoughts about whether or not I will even decide to run a marathon again.

I know I’m not the only injured runner in the world. I know there are people who have experienced far worse set-backs in their life.

But, in my little world, it’s all a big deal.

I have a second opinion scheduled for next month — the soonest I could be seen, of course — and this appointment is now my one glimmer of hope.

I still do have hope somewhere deep inside.

(Even if I feel broken, frustrated and beyond angry).

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3 thoughts on “From injured to beyond angry

  1. I never listen to people who suggest I stop running. I understand that they don’t understand. I get your anger and frustration. When I’ve gotten injured I’ve decided to use it as practice for that day that will eventually come with age–the day that I can no longer run. The devastation was so immense when I was injured that I realized I needed to amass some different tools in order to cope mentally, physically, and emotionally. Running is like nothing else. I hope you heal quickly but more importantly heal well. Take care.

  2. Hang in there! Easier said than done but it will all come good in the end. I really feel for you as ive been through it albeit for shorter periods. You WILL come back stronger for it, you’re still a runner and you will always be one

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